mei-
木曜日, 5月 13, 2010
またシングルだ。。。
彼と別れた…彼と付き合ってはも一年七月だ。その間にいろんな事があった。あたしは変わった。
その一年七月彼と付き合った時 すごく嬉しいかったし すごくくやしいかった。
まさかあの一、二月に モスのことを忘れて 彼にほられたなんて… 大したもんだな 彼は
バカバカし！皆が“彼最悪だ！捨てて！そんな男なんていないほうがいい！”って言ったのに、あたしはできなかった… まさかそんなに愛してたの
いいや
彼はどう悪い彼氏がしても、彼はあたしのことをチャンと見てました
おさないし、エゴイストし、変態し、性格悪いし、でも本当は心いい人だ。正義感も誰より強い。責任感も誰にも負けないんだ。ある時 本当に優しく あたしの乙女心にいっぱいの愛をあげた。（心とか 体とか）傷ついた時、その傷を大事にしますので、直します。
その一年七月、二人とも沢山沢山な事を経験しました。人を愛する、人を支えて、別人の気持ちとか考えを理解して、相手とケンカして、それで許して、心事を話して、気持ちを相手に届け、等。
別れた時、最初は信じられなかった。その後の二月 とっても苦しい時間を通した。今は時々彼の声を聞こえて、胸にキュンっと痛みがいた、でも彼の笑声を聞いたら、自分の笑顔を止まらなかった。
spilt it.
その一年七月彼と付き合った時 すごく嬉しいかったし すごくくやしいかった。
まさかあの一、二月に モスのことを忘れて 彼にほられたなんて… 大したもんだな 彼は
バカバカし！皆が“彼最悪だ！捨てて！そんな男なんていないほうがいい！”って言ったのに、あたしはできなかった… まさかそんなに愛してたの
いいや
彼はどう悪い彼氏がしても、彼はあたしのことをチャンと見てました
おさないし、エゴイストし、変態し、性格悪いし、でも本当は心いい人だ。正義感も誰より強い。責任感も誰にも負けないんだ。ある時 本当に優しく あたしの乙女心にいっぱいの愛をあげた。（心とか 体とか）傷ついた時、その傷を大事にしますので、直します。
その一年七月、二人とも沢山沢山な事を経験しました。人を愛する、人を支えて、別人の気持ちとか考えを理解して、相手とケンカして、それで許して、心事を話して、気持ちを相手に届け、等。
別れた時、最初は信じられなかった。その後の二月 とっても苦しい時間を通した。今は時々彼の声を聞こえて、胸にキュンっと痛みがいた、でも彼の笑声を聞いたら、自分の笑顔を止まらなかった。
spilt it.
土曜日, 7月 05, 2008
オウェン
＞＜
昨日金曜日（２００８年７月４日）彼はあたしつきあてくれた
今日から何も書いてないかもｘ。ｘ
だから今早くこれを書けて
spilt it.
昨日金曜日（２００８年７月４日）彼はあたしつきあてくれた
今日から何も書いてないかもｘ。ｘ
だから今早くこれを書けて
spilt it.
火曜日, 7月 01, 2008
DARE! [yesterday]
LOL!
i cant believe i actually got myself into this and agreed to it xD
long story to how it started, but it ended with owen suggesting me to wear my SCHOOL UNIFORM to SP, of which i counter dared and his "owen morals" couldnt reject lmao xD
but lol~ it sure was interesting and funny. i kept looking forward to the day but owen was dreading the guys would tease him badly again lmao =x but it sure did turn out to be quite an interesting day xD
started off with people asking me what bus to take to go to my school. then when i reached sp, i was the 3rd person in class. lauri was just staring at me as i walked in laughing at his face =x and then there was some explanation to why i was in my uniform and some "understanding" as to whats going on. then people started filling in one by one, and i had to answer their "why are you wearing school uniform" question one by one x.x
owen came in his, and he was ALL WHITE! and gosh was his uniform white... i couldave sworn i was blinded by it x.x he's not your actual good boy who takes care of his stuff, how the heck does he keep that uniform so white like it was new after all these years? o.O
oh and i met some of my classmates last year. was eating in the canteen when they walked by and waved and stopped to stare and point and asked LOL!
oh, and then there was this one stupid thing i ALMOST did >< i dont know why, but i have the tendency to behave better than i normally do when im in school uniform.. (or dresses) i was just walking down a corridor, and i see this lecturer walking in my direction. i we approaching each other, and i almost, i ALMOST bowed to him. i dipped my head, caught myself and brought it back up, so that it looked like a brief nod instead =x but omg...lol...
yeap..... interesting day with lotsa laughter indeed ^^"
spilt it.
i cant believe i actually got myself into this and agreed to it xD
long story to how it started, but it ended with owen suggesting me to wear my SCHOOL UNIFORM to SP, of which i counter dared and his "owen morals" couldnt reject lmao xD
but lol~ it sure was interesting and funny. i kept looking forward to the day but owen was dreading the guys would tease him badly again lmao =x but it sure did turn out to be quite an interesting day xD
started off with people asking me what bus to take to go to my school. then when i reached sp, i was the 3rd person in class. lauri was just staring at me as i walked in laughing at his face =x and then there was some explanation to why i was in my uniform and some "understanding" as to whats going on. then people started filling in one by one, and i had to answer their "why are you wearing school uniform" question one by one x.x
owen came in his, and he was ALL WHITE! and gosh was his uniform white... i couldave sworn i was blinded by it x.x he's not your actual good boy who takes care of his stuff, how the heck does he keep that uniform so white like it was new after all these years? o.O
oh and i met some of my classmates last year. was eating in the canteen when they walked by and waved and stopped to stare and point and asked LOL!
oh, and then there was this one stupid thing i ALMOST did >< i dont know why, but i have the tendency to behave better than i normally do when im in school uniform.. (or dresses) i was just walking down a corridor, and i see this lecturer walking in my direction. i we approaching each other, and i almost, i ALMOST bowed to him. i dipped my head, caught myself and brought it back up, so that it looked like a brief nod instead =x but omg...lol...
yeap..... interesting day with lotsa laughter indeed ^^"
spilt it.
月曜日, 6月 30, 2008
zero
I'm going my way. I believe in my wayspilt it.
I'm better than you guys.
I'm living for my sake, not for their sake, yeah!
I'm finding my way. I'm finding my love
I'm not stupid like you
All that I need is, I only need is selfless love
All I don't need is, I only need is selfless love
水曜日, 6月 25, 2008
How to save a life
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
spilt it.
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
spilt it.
月曜日, 6月 23, 2008
しょうがない。。。
ホンマや。。。
アイツの事考えてバッカリ でもそれはしょうがないでしょう？
好きな人は好きだからしょうがない
っと。。。アイツ今くらいな事があるみたい。。。
それはアイツの秘密だから。。。それ以外聞かないわ。。。
でも彼女があれば、もっとストレスになれようだ。。。
だから あの人の為に あたしはこれぐらい出来る。。。
あんたの為に。。。
spilt it.
アイツの事考えてバッカリ でもそれはしょうがないでしょう？
好きな人は好きだからしょうがない
っと。。。アイツ今くらいな事があるみたい。。。
それはアイツの秘密だから。。。それ以外聞かないわ。。。
でも彼女があれば、もっとストレスになれようだ。。。
だから あの人の為に あたしはこれぐらい出来る。。。
あんたの為に。。。
spilt it.
金曜日, 6月 20, 2008
あんた女の子だよ。。。
あの事の後 自分が以前のより男の子の事もっと見る （女の子はまだ見るけど 男の子の方が多い）
如何してだろう？ 自分に伺って そしてその答えは
そんな事を試してみたから 恋人関係の女になりたいんだ （以前は男とか女とか構わなかった）
それを聞いたから ジョーは
そう 女になりたいのはもちろん あんたは女の子だから て言った
で 自分は
あっそっか！ て言った
っで ジョーは
あっそっか！って何だよそれ？！あたし達女の子だよ！そこを調べて！
ハハッァ！如何してそんな事考えてなかっただろう？めいのバカ o（＞＜）o
spilt it.
如何してだろう？ 自分に伺って そしてその答えは
そんな事を試してみたから 恋人関係の女になりたいんだ （以前は男とか女とか構わなかった）
それを聞いたから ジョーは
そう 女になりたいのはもちろん あんたは女の子だから て言った
で 自分は
あっそっか！ て言った
っで ジョーは
あっそっか！って何だよそれ？！あたし達女の子だよ！そこを調べて！
ハハッァ！如何してそんな事考えてなかっただろう？めいのバカ o（＞＜）o
spilt it.
木曜日, 6月 19, 2008
VPT OVERRRRR x_X
like finally... mah gawd x.X
we were supposed to be doing 2 scenes today, so i expected us to finish at least by 5 if we're starting off at 11. but oh boy... x.x
we went to pau's house, and there was a preg cat! xD she kept rubbing herself on anything she walks pass lol. and is friendly to everybody lol. i really like her, but when she dips and rubs her head on my foot, i'm still a lil freaked >_<
when the whole thing was fiiiinally over, we went to some place for dinner "celebration". they had some promo from 9pm onwards, and we checked our watch to see that it was 9 on the dot LOL! quite a nice meal considering that i only had a bun for the whole day... lol... then i finally finally finally took out the モチto share with the guys (sad lauri had to go home for his dinner, but its okay, he can have the remains xD LOL). and wow, NONE of them ever had one before! =O it sure was a funny sight seeing them trying them out lololol xD
oh! im starting to get my appetite back! though of course its still not back full force yet... but yeah... at least its getting better =/ めい！確りして！もとに戻れ！頑張れ！悲しいのはもちろんだけど、こんなになったら自分に何の有利もない！自分より自分を愛してる人はナ。イ。無いんだ！
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we were supposed to be doing 2 scenes today, so i expected us to finish at least by 5 if we're starting off at 11. but oh boy... x.x
we went to pau's house, and there was a preg cat! xD she kept rubbing herself on anything she walks pass lol. and is friendly to everybody lol. i really like her, but when she dips and rubs her head on my foot, i'm still a lil freaked >_<
when the whole thing was fiiiinally over, we went to some place for dinner "celebration". they had some promo from 9pm onwards, and we checked our watch to see that it was 9 on the dot LOL! quite a nice meal considering that i only had a bun for the whole day... lol... then i finally finally finally took out the モチto share with the guys (sad lauri had to go home for his dinner, but its okay, he can have the remains xD LOL). and wow, NONE of them ever had one before! =O it sure was a funny sight seeing them trying them out lololol xD
oh! im starting to get my appetite back! though of course its still not back full force yet... but yeah... at least its getting better =/ めい！確りして！もとに戻れ！頑張れ！悲しいのはもちろんだけど、こんなになったら自分に何の有利もない！自分より自分を愛してる人はナ。イ。無いんだ！
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水曜日, 6月 18, 2008
longest...day...out...ever... FOR ASSIGNMENT
My Gaaaaaaaaawd... they sure are mad with VPT x.x the guys in my group. though the assignment's only like 4 credits x.x
but yeah..... we woke up at like 5 in the morning... leave at 630 to go to owens house (those who live far), haul all the eqs to school (not far from his house), and started setting up 15 before 9, planning to start shooting around 9. then found out many faults with the friggin eqs, and spent more than 30 mins changing them =.= yadda yadda blah blah
aaaaaaandthen we finished filming at 930! =D correction. 2130 =.= 930pm++ and we were all lying on the courts not wanting to get up lmao. but gee, at least i had lunch cause it was needed in part of my acting, but the guys havent had breakfast lunch and dinner O.O maybe an energy bar or a cup of milo for breakfast, and alot alot of 100plus inbetween shoots lol...
but... oh man... i feel like im just a leecher >_< my job was suppose to be continuity, but the guys were just going too fast for me to remember or note down stuff... so i tried to be useful in other areas, and voluntarily went to be the video logger, which i soon gave up too for the same reason =.=" and halfway through the first scene, my body decided to give me the you're-gonna-have-your-period-soon ache... argh...
at least at the last scene i was a little more useful... cause everyone was already dead or dying =x not that i wasnt... just that i full steamed the remaining of my energy to make myself more useful =x
yeap.... by the time we finished everything, everybody just died at the scene lol! nobody wanted dinner together, so i couldnt pull out the おかし to share with them ;_; they said that they were too tired for anything else and just wanted bed, and that celebration should be for tmr after the whole thing is done >< so in the end, only owen, his friend, and i wanted dinner out. so we took bus (and slept on it, lying down stretched across the chairs =D) to burgerking and ate and chat till it was like... 1050pm =x MY LAST BUS!!
well, it was still there... but hey! i live friggin far! by the time im home, its the next day already! >< i called mom and told her where i was, she got freaked out, and told me to take a cab home... so lol... i reached home at... 1145pm or so =D lol... tired. and here i am blogging and chatting. lol.
anyway... summary: you guys rock! xD i owe you guys a box of おかし as a gift of gratitude. will pull it out tmr after we finish our last two scenes =D hope you guys like sweet stuff =x
spilt it.
but yeah..... we woke up at like 5 in the morning... leave at 630 to go to owens house (those who live far), haul all the eqs to school (not far from his house), and started setting up 15 before 9, planning to start shooting around 9. then found out many faults with the friggin eqs, and spent more than 30 mins changing them =.= yadda yadda blah blah
aaaaaaandthen we finished filming at 930! =D correction. 2130 =.= 930pm++ and we were all lying on the courts not wanting to get up lmao. but gee, at least i had lunch cause it was needed in part of my acting, but the guys havent had breakfast lunch and dinner O.O maybe an energy bar or a cup of milo for breakfast, and alot alot of 100plus inbetween shoots lol...
but... oh man... i feel like im just a leecher >_< my job was suppose to be continuity, but the guys were just going too fast for me to remember or note down stuff... so i tried to be useful in other areas, and voluntarily went to be the video logger, which i soon gave up too for the same reason =.=" and halfway through the first scene, my body decided to give me the you're-gonna-have-your-period-soon ache... argh...
at least at the last scene i was a little more useful... cause everyone was already dead or dying =x not that i wasnt... just that i full steamed the remaining of my energy to make myself more useful =x
yeap.... by the time we finished everything, everybody just died at the scene lol! nobody wanted dinner together, so i couldnt pull out the おかし to share with them ;_; they said that they were too tired for anything else and just wanted bed, and that celebration should be for tmr after the whole thing is done >< so in the end, only owen, his friend, and i wanted dinner out. so we took bus (and slept on it, lying down stretched across the chairs =D) to burgerking and ate and chat till it was like... 1050pm =x MY LAST BUS!!
well, it was still there... but hey! i live friggin far! by the time im home, its the next day already! >< i called mom and told her where i was, she got freaked out, and told me to take a cab home... so lol... i reached home at... 1145pm or so =D lol... tired. and here i am blogging and chatting. lol.
anyway... summary: you guys rock! xD i owe you guys a box of おかし as a gift of gratitude. will pull it out tmr after we finish our last two scenes =D hope you guys like sweet stuff =x
spilt it.
月曜日, 6月 16, 2008
VPT!!!
Woah there o.O went to school at 10am today to discuss our script and what not stuff. didnt think it'd take us til what... 6pm? @_@ then we went to have dinner (couldn't finish half my hor fun though i barely took 5 bites of bread today... 調子まだ戻ってない) and play a round of arcade drums before the guys went to celebrate someone's birthday at fish and co. Owen was a pro freak who could pass some 90+ songs @_@ but when i played my usual songs, the guys said that i play very calmly compared to Owen who was like a mad man or something lmao
the guys in my group sure were very serious about the work (save for a certain one)! i'm really glad i made the choice of immediately grabbing them when we were told to form our groups @_@ (he's the only guy ive ever had a decent conversation with and contact number of... so just stick to him before you get shoved to some alien group =x )
seriously man... the way i hear how the other girls in class were doing with their groups... i really feel damn lucky to have gotten into this group >< tomorrow we'll be there at 8am (wake up at 6 @_@) and start shooting from 9, to maybe say 6... i think i'll bring a box of おかし and treat them as a thanks after the whole shoot is over xD
spilt it.
the guys in my group sure were very serious about the work (save for a certain one)! i'm really glad i made the choice of immediately grabbing them when we were told to form our groups @_@ (he's the only guy ive ever had a decent conversation with and contact number of... so just stick to him before you get shoved to some alien group =x )
seriously man... the way i hear how the other girls in class were doing with their groups... i really feel damn lucky to have gotten into this group >< tomorrow we'll be there at 8am (wake up at 6 @_@) and start shooting from 9, to maybe say 6... i think i'll bring a box of おかし and treat them as a thanks after the whole shoot is over xD
spilt it.
日曜日, 6月 15, 2008
大泣くなった「昨日」
他人が見たから 誰が死んじゃったと思うよ
でも ホンマに良かったは そのあと
そして先生に相談した 気持ちも少し良かった
っと 今日ジョーとショッピングした 新しい服を買った
晩ご飯を食べた 気持ちはもっと少し良かったわ
みんな ありがとう
spilt it.
でも ホンマに良かったは そのあと
そして先生に相談した 気持ちも少し良かった
っと 今日ジョーとショッピングした 新しい服を買った
晩ご飯を食べた 気持ちはもっと少し良かったわ
みんな ありがとう
spilt it.
土曜日, 6月 14, 2008
振られちゃった
もう終わった。。。木曜日で。
早いすぎだよ。。。
spilt it.
早いすぎだよ。。。
spilt it.
土曜日, 5月 24, 2008
モス
彼と忙しいので。。。最近何もポストしなかった。
これで二週だ。。。彼とつきあって瞬間。
もうメッチャ嬉しいで、「どうしたらいいの？」もう分からないわ＞＜
もう知らんや！ねる！
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これで二週だ。。。彼とつきあって瞬間。
もうメッチャ嬉しいで、「どうしたらいいの？」もう分からないわ＞＜
もう知らんや！ねる！
spilt it.
土曜日, 5月 10, 2008
ウソ！
うっそぉぉぉぉ～！マジでヤッテタの？！ホンマにあの人に告白してたの？！マジでオッケーをゲットしたの？！嘘だろう？！これって夢？！うわぁぁぁぁ～！＞。＜信じらんない！
めい！確りして！あんたが大丈夫だ！出来るの！ファイトーオ！
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めい！確りして！あんたが大丈夫だ！出来るの！ファイトーオ！
spilt it.
